I thank God everyday that I have had the privilege to stay home with her these last 6 months! I know so many mommies yearn for that. It took a lot of prayer and sacrifice on mine and Chris' part. We both knew that this was something that we both wanted and felt it was what was best for our sweet girl. I'm going to be honest. It's been hard. We knew it would take a lot of sacrifice financially since Chris was still in school. But by Gods grace we are making it!
My mom was a stay at home mom as well. I always took for granted how hard she worked. I never knew being "just a mom" could be as hard as it is! Don't get me wrong I love it with everything in me! But IT'S HARD!! There are no lunch breaks. There are no mid morning coffee breaks with your coworkers. There is no such thing as leaving it for tomorrow, because tomorrow there will be another list of things that need to be done! It's just me and her all day and its wonderful, but sometimes I miss adult interaction haha! I miss listening to my coworkers life stories and what they have been up to! I miss it.... but I would miss her more.... I would miss these precious moments with her WAY more than I miss those little things!
Sometimes I wonder, how Chris feels when he comes home from work and I'm still in my pajamas at 5pm. How does he feel when I haven't showered in two days. Thankfully I work out everyday so most of the time showering is not an issue haha!! Yes he says I am beautiful without make up but lets all be honest what man wants to see his wife without a stitch of makeup on for a week? I wish it was like the movies and he came home to a sparkling clean house with me all dolled up in a beautiful outfit with my hair perfect! Ava sitting perfectly in her swing in the cutest outfit ever and Charlie laying on the floor being calm. But do you know what he comes home to most days? Me still in my pajamas or workout clothes, no makeup, my hair in a greasy ponytail, Ava is either crying or just finished crying, still in her onesie she slept in last night, and Charlie is going crazy because someone is coming in the door! But not once does he complain. Not once does he say why isn't this done. Im so thankful for him and how understanding he is
Ive done my share of comparing my life to others. I look at all these other women and it looks like they have it all together. They bake, they craft, they do pinterest projects, they go and do all this fun stuff with their kids, their children are always dressed to the T and I can't even seem to get me and Ava dressed most days!! How do they do it?
But I've come to realize I'm comparing my behind the scenes to their highlight reel. I'm sure their life isn't as perfect as it seems on facebook or instagram! And Ive also come to realize God created us all different! He created us all with our own unique personalities and talents! I'm good at things that you might not be good at and vice versa!
So when you start to compare yourself to others, just stop! Stop! God created you uniquely for HIS purpose! And there is no one on this earth that is like you! So go out into this world and shine your light. Don't let the mundane things of life dull your sparkle! I know life can be overwhelming and you just feel like you aren't good enough, but rest assured that God thought you were good enough, strong enough, smart enough, brave enough, and capable enough to live this life!
Here are a few pictures I snapped of my beautiful 6 month old :)
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